February 14th, 2007
I've been feeling lately like it's time for me to dig myself out of this rut I'm in. I've been basically apathetic and lazy for over a year. Some bad stuff happened in my life at that time, but I can't let that bring me down forever.
I feel like my first stop on the road to greatness is getting back in shape. I started working on that this week again. I'm eating healthy, and I'm going to start running again either today or tomorrow. My goal is to be back in shape by the time I graduate in May. It's an obtainable goal, I believe.
Thanks for reviving this group, Nate. I've been feeling this way lately, but it's good to write it down like this.
February 13th, 2007
I realized today that the one thing I really dislike to do is waste time. I weighed a lot of different things that I like and dislike, but it was no contest. I get aggravated with myself when I lose an hour or two and didn't really accomplish anything.
So on the ride home from work today, I decided to work on improving my use of time. I usually sit around for an hour or so once I get home from work, but today I ran up and down my apartment, looking for things I needed to do and have been neglecting. I paid some bills online. Threw away all of my trash. Washed some clothes. Mailed my sister's birthday card. Cleaned up my bathroom, bedroom, living room, and kitchen. And made a quick dinner. I worked at break-neck speed to get everything done until my place seemed in order. It took about 45 minutes.
I tend to space out a lot more these days. Maybe if I focus on what I'm doing more often, I'll have more time to spend doing what I really enjoy. I plan to go to bed around 11pm tonight and wake up at 6:30am. I want to exercise a bit and eat breakfast at home before work. Let's see how this routine works out...
Ahh... clean house. My reward? A cold beer and a video game.
September 16th, 2006
My physical goals haven't taken off yet, but my career goals are in full swing. First, I'll talk about the physical, then I'll mention my career goals and plans for the future.
By this time, I wanted to be exercising at least 30 minutes day. My initial goal was to keep my weight down, but that's become a non-issue since I learned I have gallstones. Eating fatty foods increases my chances of pain, so maintaining my weight hasn't been a problem. In fact, I've lost a few pounds and have been fluctuating between 195 and 200. I'm pretty much at my ideal weight being 6'4", but I want to be more mobile, stronger, and have more stamina. So I'm still searching on how to squeeze in exercise time. My work hours have shifted to 7-4, so maybe I can squeeze in an afterwork jog at the park.
As for my career, work has been great. Very busy these first few months, but I feel that I've grown so much. I'm learning to manage my time. I want to hang out with friends and have fun like everyone else, but I also want to become a better developer and put myself in a position for a nice job either in Birmingham or New York, which is my next move in 1-3 years. I've had mild experience across a wide expanse of languages, but I'm determined to learn more Java during my personal time and grow from there. I think I'll start with the tutorials on jGuru. I've dabbled a lot, but I want to make a concerted effort to gain some meaningful experience. It will make me so much more comfortable in those difficult coding interviews.
Outside of those two topics, life has been ok. I was really regimented in my thinking coming out of my stint in Austin. I was ready to optimize everything and waste no time. I've become a little more realistic now that I've settled into my daily routine. I want to make progress in a few select areas, but I need to manage my time and be balanced in that progress. I'm in a meaningful relationship that I really see going places, and I have great friends that I shouldn't ignore. Meanwhile, I've been sacrificing all of my time to my job and that's not healthy. So I'm trying to divide my time up appropriately, take advantage of every moment and opportunity, and find ways to enjoy life.
Life is always a struggle, but I'm digging it. It would be boring otherwise and I'm stronger for the adversity. I better get some rest. I had a nice Saturday of being lazy, but I need to get some stuff done tomorrow. Peace and have a great week fam.
July 25th, 2006
Current Music: dj shadow - reconstruction medley.
So I've finally decided to sit down and rip all of my old CDs. Everything from DC Talk to Grover Washington, Jr. CDex has every music genre category I can think of. Including some I would never think of, like "porn groove".
Ripping my CDs has been on my todo list since 2000. It's about time. I've been reading a book by John C. Maxwell called "Today Matters". I have really enjoyed it. It's inspired me to tie up a lot of loose ends in my daily living. A little effort early saves so much aggravation later. I'm learning that now the hard way with my CD collection. From here on, I'll rip a CD right when I first buy it.
Like my CD collection, Maxwell emphasizes making decisions once about things in life, and then just managing those decisions. I like that approach. He covers a broad range of topics, going into detail on his personal challenges. I'm currently reading about attitude.
For me, I struggle with meeting new people and I often have a temperamental mindset when going into conversations with people I don't know. I got a chance to test my attitude today at work. We had a big company meeting with a lot of people from different departments. A social hour followed. I forced myself to smile, to say hello, and to generally be accomodating. After that initial effort, everything came so easily. And I had a great time.
This quote by John Wooden, the hall of fame coach of UCLA, summarizes what I'm trying to do:
"Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out."
July 23rd, 2006
This past week was pretty hectic. I did some extra coding this weekend to get ahead on a project. I also finished another book, roughly 800 pages.. my longest in a while. And without a doubt, "susurration" appeared, twice. At least I'll never forget the meaning of that word. I'm currently reading 3 books, and I'm considering tackling the Bible again. We'll see how that goes.
I've been having a lot of trouble with my exercise schedule. I don't really like the small treadmill or the surrounding area around the hotel, and it's very tough to motivate myself to jog. I'm eating ok though. And I'm staying pretty consistent with the situps and pushups. No real results yet, but they are getting easier to do. I'm not great at them. I've always had a hard time with pushups. Maybe it's my length. But my primary goal is to stay consistent with them until I finally settle in at Starkville. With some real stability, I'm hoping to get a nice routine going at home that will make me feel refreshed. I really just want the energy.
It was a dull weekend, mainly because I'm trying not to use my car which forces me to stick around the hotel. I did venture out to see Clerks though, and I enjoyed it.
Ok. Wishing everyone a good week ahead. Peace.
July 18th, 2006
As mentioned in my public journal, I quit raiding in World of Warcraft. Raiding is where you get 40 other dudes and take on various challenging encounters. As I hoped, by not raiding I'm getting bored with the game all together and have cut back alot. This free time s good. I'm back to more regular workouts and better sleep habits. I'm also helping around the house more. I don't get to spend more time with Imoen though because we put her to bed at 7 which is before I get on the computer. I'm also working on my tan too. But ya, I'm on track for a healthier lifestyle ande am already starting to feel happier.
July 17th, 2006
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: camp lo - coolie high.
I stole Alex's Oreilly PL/SQL book from work. He won't be needing it anymore since his internship has ended.
I've spaced out my workouts a bit since my last post. My bad ankle flared up, so I figured I should give it a rest. But where the physical has left off, the mental has picked up.
My reading has sped up, and I'm retaining more. I'm hoping to finish at least 10 books before I'm done here. And I had my best day of work today. I arrived at 7:05. Coded until 1:10. Took lunch until 2:00, and then left after 4:15. What made the day special was that I ran into some major brickwalls, but was able to think my way around them before the day ended. I had a nice, working module by the end of it. I'm proud of my work.
Best of all, I wasn't the least bit tired after work. I'm going to treat myself to dinner+movie at the Alamo Drafthouse and call it a day. Today was a good one.
July 13th, 2006
Current Music: jurassic 5 - canto de ossanha.
So I've shifted some things around with work and started my plan today.
I went to sleep at 10:02. I woke up refreshed at 5:30 and ran around the hotel complex about 5 times. I pushed myself until I couldn't run anymore. I haven't jogged since I used to go with Jenn in the mornings, so it was a shock to my system. But I did ok. The hill in the back parking lot made it a little harder, but I'm eager to hit it again in the morning.
I shifted my work hours from 8-5 to 7-4. I felt so good today. The traffic was so much lighter both to and from work. I probably gained an extra 30 minutes today just from avoiding rush hour. I was much more productive too, having 5 hours in the morning and 3 in the afternoon.
So I'm pumped about my daily application strategy. When I get back to Starkville, I plan to trade jogging for shooting hoops at the park near my apartment. Actually, I could mix it up and jog around the park somedays. I had so much more energy today. I'm hoping that will continue to increase as my exercise routine becomes more regular.
In addition to my fiction, I'm reading a book my dad gave me a couple of years ago, Today Matters by John C. Maxwell. I like the quotes in there. I think I'll start dropping a quote here or there that I like. Here's today's quote:
You will never change your life until you change something you do daily.
July 10th, 2006
Yeah, so after staying up super late, today was very rough. While I was amped enough in the morning to fly through some code, it was not enough by noon. I still feel like crashing, but I want to read some more.
So here are my immediate goals, things I must do everyday:
1. Exercise for at least 15 minutes.
2. Read at least an hour of anything.
3. Do situps and pushups before bed.
4. Clean up anything I've left out before I go to bed.
5. Make a todo list of anything I really (want to do / need to get done) the next day.
It's been tough to stick to this. Some of these I'm still working on. 2, 3, and 4 haven't been a problem. But I always feel pressed for time to squeeze in number 1. If I can wake up around 6:30, I should be able to squeeze in a jog on the treadmill before my shower, but it's been super tough to get out of bed, especially after late nights. All I want to do when I wake up is take a long hot shower. I'm trying to hit the sheets before midnight though, and with some healthy eating, I'm hoping I'll have more energy in the mornings.
After I get comfortable with this basic schedule, I think I'll have my health goals well in hand. I'm not too worried about my weight. I'm more concerned about my long term health, so that's my initial focus. I've already cut out fast food and most fried foods, and I'm getting better at monitoring my caloric intake and taking my daily vitamins. My drinking has virtually disappeared, and I didn't even notice. If I do have a beer, I try to limit it to 2 at a sitting and to enjoy it rather than just to drink it down. This has also allowed me to buy better beers from time to time and to treat them like dessert.
Well. That's where I'm at today. I think I'll post more statistic-based updates as these things become habits. Peace.
I had a severely bad case of insomnia tonight that caused me to get out of bed and pray. I don't know what it was, but something just felt off. Like something bad was happening. So I prayed about it. And for some reason, I felt like posting to this community again.
I confess to be a Christian, but I would definitely say I'm atypical of the prototype, as far as religion and tradition are concerned. Let's just say I'm more open-minded than most. I am great friends with many different types of people with all kinds of beliefs. And friends with people who have no beliefs at all. I enjoy learning about all sorts of people and refining my own ideas of life.
Things have been up and down for me since I started this community a long time ago. Back then, I was really angry and confused about a lot of things. I had to have a place to vent, but I wanted to do something positive with my energy, so it led me to this idea for a community.
Things have changed a lot since then. I've graduated from college. I've started my first, real full-time job. I'm meeting new people. And I've met someone who understands me on a lot of different levels, and I love her for that and more. But most of all, I feel challenged by a lot of new situations. It's all a part of growing up. Everyone goes through this stuff. But as the days pass, I can feel time going by. Some days, I use it up. Some days, I waste it. And the biggest thing that reverberates in my brain is that I should try and use more days than waste them. A simple idea, but something that seems more important to me as I grow older and my environment changes.
So I'm going to start posting to this community again, partially, just to help myself be more committed to things I really want to do in life. I find that it's much more difficult to accomplish goals without any sort of accountability. By putting my plans and ideas out there, it forces me to pay more attention to them and to be more accountable for things I say I'm going to do. It's always easier to accomplish things with someone supporting you, and you in turn supporting him or her. And that was the big idea behind this community in the first place.
So I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm here to read your ideas and offer my support if you feel like sharing. And if not, feel free to read what I post. Thanks for reading.